bitch session

Warning: if you're not in a sympathetic mood save this for later. . .

Let's say you are really really into the show LOST, and there's another person that is really really into it. Then there's this other person that doesn't watch it at all and has no plans to. When the three of these people are out together would it not be a little annoying for them to talk about LOST like it's the greatest thing ever? Then continue to talk about other things that you know they're not interested in?

I've made an effort to watch some of these shows that seem to be the beginning and end of their lives, but i can never get as excited about them. At one point I was watching nine shows just to keep up...there were more to be watched. Then I decided that that was completely ridiculous, now I only watch "How I Met Your Mother" and "Ugly Betty." Which are two really cute shows that I recommend.

Let's say you were in Tokyo ready to go home, but the next train was in a minute and you needed time to get on a platform you couldn't locate. There's four people two figure out where they're going and rush off, one of the two gestures to come but the other two have no tickets and has no idea what's going on. The two are left to catch the next train, but wouldn't you have waited for them?

I have to admit it sounds petty but, isn't it the little things that count? It's times like these that I question if i'm being too sensitive or if i'm allowed to feel a little abandoned and let the perpetrators know. Yet i can't bring myself to since it would create grounds to mock me as they did with the other girl that was left with me. yes this sounds cowardly of all cowardliness, but think of how painful it is when it's not even out of love.

Let's say your planning a trip to Disneyland to see all the Christmas decorations, which by the way is very important to get you into the holiday spirit in a country that let's you welcome the new year without realizing christmas had already passed. Friday works for two, but just ends up not working for one. Yes Friday is ideal, but would you go on a school night so you can have the third person go?

I realize having the next day off is a very important factor in enjoying a trip to Disneyland, so my strategy for this is to just let it go and try to find others to go with. But still a little hurt that having the next day off or not going on a crowded weekend is more important than having me go with them..

Now the question 'why are you hanging out with these people?' may rise, and the answer to that is simply: within the JET community they're interests match mine the most. To be honest i felt i could become close with one of the two; there was a point where we talked a great deal. But later i realized i was a stand-in while the sister of the other was visiting. Making friends is easy, but sometimes you don't understand where people are coming from, you have nothing in common, they just want to sleep with you, or i just don't approve and that kinda narrows things down. Anyway, i'm still learning and trying to not 'take myself so seriously'. . . i have no idea what this means but i'm working on it.


To Allie: that's ok, i blog in bulk
To Ellie: it's definitely an experiment to see if the absence of distractions actually gets the job done quicker.
To Jessica: What!!
To Andy: I want to laugh too..
To Sammi: blog muse says blog
To Cassie: teacher, teacher, teacher, jess, ann. ..
To Uyennie: mashed potatoes!? target!! vegas!!! you're killing me!
To J&C: sorry if you ever read this...
To Pili: I just realized you had a blog...omg i'm going to spend saturday reading it

but now I must sleep.